Major Anxiety Attacks

Wow!  I'm feeling very very Anxious today and it feels like my heart & brain is about to burst, I'm extremely tired and starting to panic.  So I've decided to skip the family event and my mom seems understanding that I'm not doing so well and need this time to take care of myself.  If my writing is chaotic today is because my concentration sucks...

I am going for a short walk this afternoon to get out at least once even for at least 15 minutes and to listen to some calming and positive music and/or watch u-tube videos (meditation, quotes that go with music, etc...)

I know why I started to panic because my husband was not able to go to the event and he is a major support for me and at this time I need someone to keep me balanced.  Medications and other techniques will not help me and I will feel very trapped spending time with family.  My family are pretty good but do not have their support (I have my mom's support) with my mental health and physical issues which makes it hard for me to visit them.

It has been a hard few years for me and the last month I had medication changes for my Bipolar Disorder and I'm just starting to feel better.  Though my anxiety & panic attacks still happen from the smallest things and I need to take small steps to my recovery

Hope to feel better in the afternoon....  Wish me Luck!